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Name: Faith
Birthday: 5/31/1989
Gender: Female


Interests: friends, sitting by my pond at midnight dreaming, shows at Calvary, music, love, family, learning gee-tar, emo, ska, ruining my mascara, and once again music
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Wednesday, October 12, 2005

yet again.  another update for the dearest hillary.  but this one will be a bit more serious.  so please read it.  I'd appreciate it.

 

There are a lot of things that I feel people don't say as often as they should therefore I will say them for everyone.

The word love is used too often and over the wrong people.  Yes you love your friends, and yes you may love your boyfriend.  But you do not love the guy that you saw in the mall, or met at a show and have talked to once since then.  You do not love someone you have known for a short time of a week.  It is just ridiculous.  Love is not a word to mess around with.  Don't say it unless you mean it, and when you mean it then you say it.  Don't say it because your boyfriend says it first and you feel bad if you don't say it back because it will only prolong his pain and unknowingness of your true feelings.  Follow your heart and not your head.  Don't get with guys that chose someone else over you and then fall back on you because it didn't work out with the other girl.  And guys, don't do that to girls.  It hurts us, it really truly does.  Girls are quite mean as well, most of us tend to jump from one guy to the next in a matter of weeks, some even days and it is just uncalled for.  If you like someone, go after them and no one else.  If it works out good for you and if not find someone else.  Things will work themselves out even if you think otherwise. 

I have come to realize that this world is full of chaos and I can not do anything to stop it but I can make some people come to their senses and that has to help somehow and in someway.  Do not hide behind lies and mask, it will get you no where in this world but hurt more than you ever knew imaginable.  Don't get to open with someone, it can come back to bite you in the ass one day but don't be a loner and not talk to anyone at all, that is even worse.  Trust is something we give to easily lately.  No one has to earn it.  You meet someone at a show and you begin spilling out all of your problems and misunderstandings to them from the start.  Give it time, the person you give all this free information too might have a huge mouth and get you in trouble some day.

Live life to the fullest.  Sitting at home on your computer all day is not life, and I know this true to myself as well.  Don't waste your time doing pointless things when you could be out having fun with friends.  The opposite sex or even the same sex depending on your preference are not worth all that we let them do to us.  When you find someone that is worth all the crap they wont put you through so much of it. 

What ever happened to clothes that covered girls stomachs and cleavage? Girls some of you are degrating yourself.  You wonder why you get no guys and when you get guys they only want you for sex, look at the clothes you wear and the way you present yourself.  Listen to what you say to guys and how it usually only revolves and sex and the things you have done in the past with guys.  If you want a good guy that will treat you right act like it and don't act like a bad ass who wears no clothes.  Skin is alright to a point but somethings people wear just look so dumb.  And i must say it looks good when some people do it but when you do it all for the attention it is just pointless to me.  Don't say you can't get a good guy when you don't try to be a good girl.  It may attract guys to you but for all of the wrong reasons.  Cover yourselves up and have some more dignity.  And stop calling yourself fat, you are not fat.  I can't stand it when someone tells me "oh Faith you are so skinny" and they call themselves fat two seconds later when they weigh less than I do.  Do not lie to yourself to get people to compliment you.  I admit I say things about myself but I don't call myself fat and ugly, I may say I feel fat because I just ate a lot, or I like horrid right now.  But I know I'm not ugly and I know I'm not fat.  Girls get more confidence in yourself for a change.  You would get a better guy that way.

Guys, stop being assholes.  Do not call a girl hot.  I admit some girls may like that but most of us don't.  We want to be beautiful, or gorgeous, or pretty.  Not hot or sexy.  That makes us feel like all you want from us is sex and the relationship we have is meaningless altogether.  Treat us with respect and we will treat you the same way.  Play rough with us but not so rough that we get hurt and when we say stop, it means that you should stop.  Stop telling us you love us just to get in our pants or just because you feel like saying it, it is not a toy.  We have feelings and so do you, treat us nicely and you will usually get the same treatment back.

There is so much out there left to explore for all of us, new people and places.  You could meet a new best friend one day on your way to work.  Get in a car accident and marry the person that totalled your new car.  The world has a crazy way of working out but it works out so stop wasting your life saying that you will never find a guy or a girl that is right for you.  Go out and do something.  Or stay at home and do something.  Dance or sing or something. JUST HAVE FUN!  Everyone takes things way to seriously and it is so stupid.  It is not a big deal if your boyfriend that you knew for a week broke up with you.  You will get over it soon, I promise.  And if you don't you are a huge drama queen.

That is just some of what I want to say.  There is a lot more but I am tired of wasting precious time where I could be doing something productive with my life.  I know I need to take my own advice about some of these things as well, and trust me I am starting to.  I love all of my friends.  You guys inspire me so much.

 

I edited it so people would understand better what I meant.


Monday, June 27, 2005

this update is for the SUPERFUCKINGFANTASTIC Hillary.

I haven't done much lately.  Went to the beach Saturday with Donna.

the sunset on the way home, so pretty

been lots of birthday parties this past month

MINE
 my cool hippo cake

 all the food from the night after the guys left.  we are all so fucking fat.

 AWESOME PAT! 

 dan and frank.

 the loverly Aarika, haha

 crystal being well, crystal

 i locked hillary in the dog pen.  haha

SAMIS:

brando and sami

 brttonator

BRTTONATORS:


 myk before the puke

 paull sleeping awww

then i went campingg:

 me and dallas

 the lake we stayed by

 the sun on the lake

thee enddd

 look at that LARGE ass.  with her foot in the sink.

all done.  HAPPY HILLARY?!?! 


Monday, May 30, 2005

tomorrows my birthday.


Monday, May 09, 2005

I figured it was my turn to do this. 

I miss the old days just as much as everyone else does.  I miss always having a smile on my face and never having to fake being happy like I had to do for a while.  I miss everyone being happy and having a good time together, and I miss liking myself for who I was.  I don't like myself that much anymore.  I'm not a great person if you think about it, but that is what all of us are coming to as we slowly grow apart from each other.  I miss when me and Dan Boyd would have our movie talks and people would tell us to be quiet because we were being too loud.  I miss going to the beach with Dallas and Chelsea almost every weekend.  I miss the state fair.  I miss hanging out with Hillary everyday of every weekend at the end of 2004.  I miss our friend from the Cafe.  I miss getting all the sweaty hugs from people getting off of DDR, what the hell happened to all you freaks and that game?  I miss everyone getting along and not caring about petty little things that go on.  I miss how close we all used to be when we could just talk and not have things said behind our backs.  I miss hanging out with people who I had no idea who they were and still having a blast anyway.  I miss those Calvarys that were fun and not full of drama, when we would all just hang outside and randomly take pictures of our friends.  I miss the Boobie Circle and the fluid that came out of the guys ass at Aarika's house.  I miss everything that I used to do.  The people I used to hang out with.  All the true mall rats before all these 12 year old hoes showed up to try to take over our territory.  I miss when Pat used to play me my song and I'd just sit there and smile to myself.  I miss when everyone wasn't so damn emo.  I just miss it all.  I'm sure you all know how much I miss it all because you miss it too. 

I miss everything, especially the constant happiness that never left.  But it'll get better.  It has got to get better.  Lets bring the mall rats back, come on you guys.

<333


Wednesday, May 04, 2005

today was boring at first.
went to school. yippy fucking do da.
at lunch, derek was on something.
and it was hilarious.
he was like "bend over nigger and ill do you from behind"
yeah....
and after school i walked to the super soda center with raven and sara
then met up with joey <3
went back to his house to hang out
his house is HUGE
and so are his dogs..
i thought they were going to eat me
hung out there until 5:30
lots of fun
his mom said i was quiet...
PSHHHHHHHHHHHH
yeah rightt
came home
sat down at the computer
here i am
doing this for hillary
cause she misses when i explained my day
so here ya go hillary


nigga nigga what what!

my day.. the end



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